The Meditations thoughts

2011.12.9 17：00

from：http://www.lilyma.com

Something about the meditations, and something I know from my short life. Something need to remind myself, and something need to repeat all over again......

如果能控制自己的愤怒，那么已经在做事的过程中受益非浅，这已经是自己给自己的非常大的礼物。If I can government my anger & my temper, Has benefited greatly from the process when i’m working. And this is a very big present for myself.

我想，如果自己懂得自身到底需要的学习方向，那么自身的修炼不为是一种良好的方式。 I thgout, if I know the direction of the study for my self. The practice of myself is a kind of good method.

任何无谓的党争，利益的豪夺，都是短暂的快感，失去的远比夺来的更多。 Any kind of party against is meaningless, Extortion the interests, are short of pleasant sensation, what you is more than than what you took.

我承认，我还无法做到不以笑声来掩饰我心中的焦虑，但是我正在寻找一种方法。 I admit, I still laugh for hide anxiety from my heart. But I am also seeking for a good method for it.

这位皇帝说：你只有有限的时间，如果你不用这段时间来清除你灵感上的阴霾,它九将逝去，你亦将逝去，并永不复返。”我说,中文有句话叫及时行乐，虽然并不是一个意思⋯⋯但关键是看此‘乐’的标准，而我的快乐标准：是对一种事物领悟的瞬间快乐。 The emperor said: “That a limit of time is fixed for thee, which if thou dist not use for clearing away the clouds from thy mind, it will go and thou wilt go, and it will never return.” I say, Chinese have something called “relished of joy”. Not a same meaning... But what is the standards point of “joy”. My “joy” is about a thing I understand to the moments, I got the time.

虽然，对他人的寄托与希望是一个美好的借口，实质上，它只在人生必要的途中起了“麻醉”的毒性。 Although, for others the hope it is a great excuse. In essence, in the necessary way of life, that is an ‘anesthesia’ toxicity.

对心的蒙蔽，或者寻求透彻的心，是本质不同的人生追求，而后者需要持之以恒的坚强。 Veiled to heart, or, seek thorough to heart, is the different life pursuit. The latter need to perserve and strong.

我对死亡的恐惧在于：如果我把我的人生归为60年的期限，1至10岁——无知的随性；11至20岁——学习与入世，包括犯错与受伤；21至30岁——明辨是非，寻找梦想；31至40岁——完成我的理想；41至50岁，享受自己；51至60岁——沉思与总结；60岁以后，如果还活着，那么随便爱干嘛干嘛。但是我不能在现今就接受结束生命，那破坏了我后30年的美好的规划。 I fear of death is: If I had my life the limit time for 60 years. 1 to 10 -- being ignorance; 11 to 20 --learning and how to start my life, including making mistakes and by hurts; 21-30-- Make a clear distinction between right and wrong, seeking for dreams; 31-40-- Make my dream come true ; 41-50-- Enjoy what I have done; 51-60-- Meditate and summarizes my life; After 60, if still have 60, do whatever I want I don’t care. But I can't accept the end of my life now, that will destroy my beautiful planning of my next 30 years. That’s why I had my fear.

我对神虽未知，但我对一切出现的事物表示合理的理解，而我自己相信以人为本，如果非要加个神，那么心中的神叫：真善美。 The realm of god is my unknown. But I understand it's reasonable to appear. And I believe that: it all about human oriente. If must have a god. i called them: truth,good and beauty.

时间是人类欲望的最大敌人，而且从未胜出。 Time is the biggest enemy of human desire, and we never win.